Today, as I gaze out into the gorgeous ocean water, deep into the unknown, my mind wanders to a baby. One that fully exists in my world, and is never far from my thoughts, but is still deep into the unknown. Will I ever hold you? Will I be your Mommy? Is it really God I feel swirling in my heart, giving me this unrelenting urge to find you, in a Faraway country? Will your Daddy get that same swirling in his heart or in his dreams that will let us know it’s part of our story to come find you? To rescue you from a life of abandonment and fear. To bring you into our crazy family, so full of chaos, but also so full of love. So full of knowing that no matter what, family is forever and that no matter what you do, you are loved. So for now, I dream about you and gaze far out into the unknown, wondering what you look like and if a stranger in a foreign land is making you feel loved and secure. I believe with all of my heart you are safe and dreamingof a big and crazy family in America,and I believe we are it. I am so thankful for a God that loves orphans and for a God that gives patience and peace to those who wait. Because, I am not good at waiting. I am a planner and an advocator, those are my skills. Not waiting or patience. But my journey to you, one that in my head I know may never happen, but in my heart I know that it will happen in God’s perfect timing and I have complete peace and patience as I wait for Him to show me the details. And because this peace and patience is so out of character for me, I have full confidence that it comes from the One who has handwritten the intricate details of our story!
The Brooks Family 